February 2012
13 posts
yeah okay maybe i AM giving up. Because I can’t stand the sight of you anymore
Need to rant.
DEAR MOM,
I LOVE YOU but PLEASE stop giving me shit about returning home late as if it’s I queued up for it and getting all pissed off with me eating a late dinner like I get HIGH FROM GASTRICS OR SOMETHING. I DIDNT SIGN UP FOR THIS. ITS NOT 3 MONTHS YET. Start yelling from 12th March onwards okay??
YES I know that I have very little hours from freedom- barely 2 hours...
Have came to the conclusion that I am incapable of having dreams. What I have are only bubbles of inspirations. Dreams are fed by passion, at least by mere interest… which for me, doesn’t quite last. Thinking about it, I’m not someone with strong beliefs. I take a stand, yes, but I don’t feel even like, 80% convinced of those stands. I lack the stamina to have a dream.
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FEBRUARY.
Shop and exercise!
January 2012
10 posts
It's not me, it's you
Have just realised I have completely given up on a friend. Sigh. Things between us are too complicated and too painful.
And this mistake makes me doubt myself constantly, if I can be ever sure enough make a decision that I would not regret in the near future. Because if I were to take the wrong step, I’d have to go through another mess that I really cannot afford to go through emotionally...
Today’s a good day.
Both journeys to and from work had been long but painless. Crazy jam in the morning, but I managed to get a seat. Had to stand on the way home but I had good company.
While rushing the monthly sales summary just now at 7.30pm, I felt a sudden breath of happiness for some strange reason. Not sure why, but probably because I was too hungry and lightheaded. Or it could...
2012
To live life for what it is, to experience it, for what it is. And to stop moaning about how it could be better. Make it better.
December 2011
7 posts
I miss you
most in the morning
most every morning
I wake up thinking-
that some things are better left unsaid :)
November 2011
9 posts
It’s actually pretty comforting to feel lost when you’ve never been found your whole life.
I don’t think I have ever felt so wounded only by re watching a snippet of a movie. Hurts so bad I can hardly breathe :(
October 2011
5 posts
Oh lover, hold on.
Simple pleasures in life such as staying home on a rainy afternoon, embraced by the warm husky voices of Rachael Yamagata (and Ray LaMontagne) is <3.
Okay so my room isn’t particularly impressive, but I love the fishball lights I got from Chatuchak in Bangkok. My mom claims it makes my room resemble a gypsy tent but I really love how it softens the atmosphere of the room…...
Feels good to be back :)
Whatever that I was going through these few months- the confusion, dejection, regrets- I guess I can safely bid farewell to them for a while. Hopefully this fresh optimism lasts for some time, not like it’ll be gone the next morning or something. I guess what made tonight seem like such a turning point was after watching Woody Allen’s “Midnight in...
Yup, this is yet another entry on Steve Jobs, if cyberspace isn’t clogged with them already.
But for a reason. I mean, admittedly, the somewhat rebellious (and annoying) side of me felt rather cynical when just about EVERYONE was tweeting their condolences or grief with the very convenient #ripstevejobs or #iSad or whatever to regulate the crazy traffic on cyberspace, but after listening...
September 2011
8 posts
I don’t even know what I can do that can reverse all these. I can’t commit my words with actions, so I guess it’s better to remain silent. But I feel a little hurt, so here I am, whining on tumblr. Anyway it seems like the only people who understand this are people who are going through the same shit. Which is, in a way, good I guess, because it’s a terrible position to be...
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Lights will guide you home :)
I think I’m at the lowest point in my life right now. Nothing seems to be going right, and almost every day seems to be a wake up call. I wish I wasn’t so pampered. I wish I was more motivated… I wish I had done more. Basically, emo-ed less, and acted more. I’ve come to realise that emo-ing is a major waste of time (& so are infatuations and relationships (!) but...
Whenever you feel consumed by vulnerability, pettiness, or just a general state of despair, think about people who are really struggling through life. Think about how they still managed to survive, when even basic necessities like shelter or a warm meal are in question every single day. They are fighting a daily battle against hunger pangs, against the cold, and for some, against old age- a...
I just wrote a long entry on WAITING and disappointment and the uploading failed. Entry disappeared. So did a part of my soul that I was desperately pouring out to this non-existent space.
L-FUCKING-IFE.